What Ever (Ramble 2)

Sorry I haven't posted in a while, I've been really busy studying for an AP test this past week, and just thought it might be smart to keep this in my history, until that was done. Right now I'm feeling tired, and really just meh. Last time I said that I was going to start talking about depression, but I don't want to. So much in my life I've lived by willpower, and just set a goal, and finish it no matter what. I really love my ability to do that successfully, but right now, just no. I'm going to write about something I want to. Time to talk about happiness :).

Well in reality this going to be much more like a ramble, which if you haven't read here it is Ramble . I don't really want to talk about depression, mostly because I want to want to talk about it, when I right about it, I want it to be real, not something I'm forcing myself to do. I really am literally rambling right now, but that's what I want to do, I just want to talk, Today was actually really fun, but life. There is one thing I had wished to do, but I didn't because I was too afraid. I could make endless excuses, but really it was just fear, and I feel bad because I didn't. Fear and will power, both can be very important, but you know you need a balance within life. One thing that I've done for the past couple years is that I'll get a new social media thing at the start of each summer. I really want to get snapchat, but literally the only reason I haven't is that I made a deal with myself. That's basically the stupidest reason to not do something, I made a deal, only with myself, that's just making my life a little less fun. That's why I've decided to get snapchat.

More stuff, I'm just gonna do things, I might be ridiculously afraid of them, but what's the worst that can happen. Well actually pretty bad stuff but why decrease my chance for happiness. Now I look at what I just wrote and realize in this exhausted state of mine I've become a monster. Life is just hard, but hard isn't bad, and it certainly doesn't give you a right to be mean. There is never a time where people should be mean, you can be educational, you can disagree, but there is never a time that one should strive, with only one purpose, to hurt someone else. When that occurs no one feels better, but if that occurs is the true test of people. Are ability to come together after terrible things, our forgiveness to those who wrong, second chances are deserved by all, because life is a dream, and you never die in a dream.

We are a social society, we are a nice society, we work together, and that's what makes us human. A laugh by another, is a laugh from within. Thank you for reading this incoherent complete ramble, tired as one could be, post. And enjoy life, for me, and I'll do the same for you.